Ive been putting a lot of pressure on myself these days..and making myself real stressed.. its escalating..damm it..
today is the worse day of the week, cos its the start of study..sigh..wished thursday come sooner..not to mention this wed got a presentation, and with another 2 quiz next wk..hrmm..tonight gonna get back my malay quiz result, most likely will flunk..but i do hope that I tikam most of them correct haa.. but unlikely..now really regret taking malay..if only i didnt take, then I be returning home at 430pm today..and at 1230 on wednesday...sianz...
Its mid autuum tmr! but think im gonna be preparing for my presentation tmr night..or maybe just go down to the temple at fajar for some free bbq. see how first...

hrmm...been out the whole day doing project in orchard..so tiring..but think its quite interesting with the ideas we have come up with..and quite productive too.
Been thinking about my way of communicating with people..is being direct good or bad? I have been trying to change myself, into a more communicative person, someone whos more vocal about things n all.. someone whos able to speak his mind easily..and able to do it in a constructive way..
Also, wanna change my eating habits too.. cos think maybe i have been too picky about my food. Maybe will start eating things like japanese food which I dont in the past. And maybe try morenew things.. but then again, you wont really see me eat seafood though.. I still have my preferences.
Recently received an email from Si, shes coming to Spore!!! yeah!!.. hee.. anyway, shes be coming around Dec..and may be staying in my house, provided another frens house is not available for use, cos my house is not that big after all. hrmm...maybe I can follow her back to Thailand for holiday? haha...but unlikely also..need to find work first, cannot keep using my parents money.
Was bitten by my dog today..sigh..not really angry with him, but was a bit disappointed though..being bitten by the dog that you feed..
Tmr play vball!!! time to destress! Gonna really enjoy myself tmr, before a whole day of work waiting for me on sunday.

Today before you think of saying an unkind word
Think of someone who cant speak

Before you complain about the taste of your food
Think of someone who has nothing to eat

Before you complain about your husband or wife
Think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion

Today before you complain about life
Think of someone who went too early to heaven

Before you complain about your children
Think of someone who desires children but they're barren

Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or sweep
Think of the people who are living in the streets

Before whining about the distance you drive
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet

And when you are tired and complain about your job
Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another
Remember that not one of us are without sin and weall answer to one maker

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down
Put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and still around

Life is a gift
Live it...
Enjoy it...
Celebrate it...
And fulfill it.

hrmm.. finding the link on top more and more useful le, haha.. too lazy to go to the blogger mainpage and click here click there le.
Anyway, its finally thursday! After a mind bogging 3 days, finally can take a breather, but later still got to go school to hand in the written report.
Yesterday took a malay quiz.. but think Im going to flank it..really bad..my standards now still very low loh. But nah...not going to be bothered too much by it.
Exams is getting nearer and nearer.. sianz... anyway, I found it amazing that nowadays, all my projects are completed within one wk loh, its only the wk before that we start doing it one, unlike secondary schools where we took one whole holiday to do one project. but then again, its not really a grp work, cos basically u just divide the work, each do their own part and ppt, then send to one person to compile, and there, the ppt is out.
hrmm.. lunchtime..my appetite is getting back..and im getting fatter haha..

Today is saturday...tomorrow is sunday....the day after tomorrow is monday...end of recess...start of school...

Terminal is a damm nice show!! really made me laugh!!! must go watch!!!!

hmm.. Im actually in the school library now.. in school studying.. but then now no mood.. so here i am, sitting in front of the com and wasting my time away..diaoz...
Anyway, went to watch Dodgeball on wednesday, right after blood donation..and it sucks! hee.. ok la, its not tt bad, but I dont its good anyway, the jokes are lame. So, I dont recommendation anyone to go watch it haha.. later going to watch terminal, then tmr going to watch ghost... watching a lot of movies...n burning my pocket too ...
holiday is going to end soon..and there are still many things i have not done yet..tts y been coming to sch to study.
tmr got vball!!! haha.. long time no play le..hehe..:)
sianz...still got some time left..

went out with my friend yesterday to study..hrmm..at least we did some work , definitely more than if I were to stay at home. At least Im almost finished going through my fm, but still yet to do the tutorials.
Going out with my army friends later, n guess where we going...blood donation haha... Anyway, I was intending to donate blood regularly, just feel that I should do some deeds haha..and since I got no money, I give blood haha...:P
going school later too, to do some proposal or whatever.. cos I actually joined the student union in ntu..surprise? Im suprised too hah..me is the vice event chair under the main comm of special project haha.. sounds nice? hha.. but dunno who much work it will give me too..besides my actual work will only be next year loh, cos Im in charge of the union camp ball next year, still long way form now, though I think theres lots of thing to be done, but nvmm.. jus take one step at a time.
hrmm..think I say till here first, breakfast is more impt hehe..

stress...one word to decribe everything ard me now. stress, the word to describe my life now. stress...tts what im feeling now...stress...stress....stress....
its been a hectic weekend of staying overnight outside.. first is my sec sch class outing, stayed overnight at cineleisure kbox.. hrmm... long time nvr see them le..and chun siong really mature a lot le..really noe how to think now, its a lot of difference. then next one is the bbq yesterday at west coast. Its the first time I been to west coast park.. and its not a bad place, not as many ppl than east coast, and its easily accessible too, at least for me, just one bus away. The environment is not bad either, and theres many people down there flying kite. The bbq pit is free too, just need to book it can le. anyway, was really crazy yesterday loh, going around with my og playing the playgrounds haha...but really had fun there hah..went home via the first bus in the morning..and slept till 3plus haah...tired...
think im goin sleep le too...buaiz..

Saturday afternoon, looks like its going to rain soon. hey hey..it started raining le. I like raining days..so nice to sleep in haha..anyway, main reason is raining is so cooling lor, Singapore is just too hot. On the other hand, it better not rain tmr, cos I have a bbq tmr, if it rain then really gone case liao. Later be going down orchard for my class outing as well, but dont think it will affect me anyway.
Was in the lecture in the morning when I noticed the ntu logo on the podium, and out of nowhere, started thinking about how I came so far, and how I ended up in ntu. As i wrote on piggy blog the other day, all along since secondary school, I never had any idea of what I really want in the future, which direction I want to go. My motivation in study was to work real hard, get good results, so that I could have a choice in the future. When Olevel ended, there was 2 road, and I went to jc, cos well.. I had the chance to go to jc while many others dont have, so I shouldnt waste the chance. Besides, a large part of my gang chosed jjc too, so thats where I go. In my jc days, it was the same strategy again, the same motivation, to have a choice in the future, and tts what I did for the Alevels, and I chose business over engineering. Now that I ended up here, the same motivation wasnt here anymore. Its a different situation now. Im already in my area of study. Where do I go next? How much work am I willing to put in? How much sacrifices am I willing to undertake? 2 years in the army..and I no longer have the competitive edge anymore. The me in the past dont like losing, I always aimed for the top, relishing challenges. But now..all this is no longer my priority, the preservance in me is just not there anymore. Change..for good or for bad..

hmm..how does this look? nice? decided to change the design a bit, cos getting bored with the previous one le..anyway, gonna slp le..nitenitez...

shit man...finding it so hard to study..jus unable to concentrate on it at all..

found a quote worth thinking about:

Speak when you are angry--and you will make the best speech you'll ever regret. Laurence J. Peter (1919 - 1988)

Thursday.. the start of my one week break..though theres a lecture this sat, but nah... tts not counted. Gonna to really work hard during this break, cos falling real behind le..n somemore the quiz results yesterday..Im not as smart as I imagined..damm it..
Did a quite proud thing this morning, run all the way to Gombak stadium haha..but the pace wast tt fast.. n stamina was real bad loh, though I managed to reach there without stopping. But down there, everything gone to waste after downing the macdonald meal haha..with my frens there. AND HOR! the big breakfast EGG is so SMALL loh!!! I want to complain!!! the egg is half the size now loh! cmon loh.. macdonald earn so much, and yet so miserable in their servings.. do they really have to do this...its only a few cents more per meal loh.
today is my break day..wondering what to do now.. think i shall slack the day away..

bad bad...my quiz results... sigh...below average loh...sianz...

my first test tmr..in 2years 9months..

waiting for school now..so sian, dont feel like studying too.. though tmr is the quiz already, but heard that its not tt difficult. And its a open bk test haha..so kinda slacking now.

one whole morning gone le.. and im still yet to go past my first page..really finding it hard to study now..

Hmm... think i got it..its really convenient, but cannot change colour..

Lost World

testing testing..

seems like blogger got a new function of posting by jus clicking the link above my blog..but shadnt try it first, if not after writing then lose my whole post again will be damm irritating.
not been productive over the last 2 days, supposed to prepare my quiz..n its really ironic that Im here writing my blog on a friday. anyway, just to spend a bit of time here, cos going to orchard later, to get my friend's present.
Been seeing a lot of poiltics recently in school..some decisions being made without consulting..i just try to stay out of it, and see whats going to happen next. cant imagine the amount of politics Im gonna face when I go to work in the future.
Anyway, went to creative sale this afternoon, and really a lot of ppl down there, rich ppl.. buying like the things are free. Why the hell they need so many creative products..think creative mkting strategies is growing fruits le..jus imagine I took 45mins to pay for my item. went back to jjc today too, wow... the canteens change le. its a place I really cherish, the times I spend there. Anyway, was there talking to my chin teacher Mdm Ng Yok Lan, she remembered me leh..then Mr Mak, before waiting for Mdm Lim to end her lesson. Mr Lim Chee Guan wasnt there anymore, he transferred to JI le. Mdm Lim actually remembered my name haha...think shes the only teacher to remember me lor, and she remembered any single person in my class, and asked about their wherebouts, really you xin loh, so nice.. think I will miss her kind of teacher.. now that uni tutor all sucks big time. Its been 3 years since they saw us loh, and to remember to such details was really gd loh. miss my jc life..
guess its just a way of growing up, and soon, when I go into the working life, tts when life will really get very sad...haha..perssimistic hor?

hmmm... im a bit late this time, its thursday already. And finally I change my problematic graphics card, hopefully there wont be any more problem coming from this computer. think I shall go buy the hair dye later..what colour should i dye..
been feeling depressed the past few days, but nvm...
actually I also got nothing much to update about, not going to write about whats been happening over the wkend blah blah.. think its too boring anyway. Btw, theres a creative sale this wkend, starting from tmr, for which I will be going down, to help a friend get a mp3 player. They really cut prices a lot this time, so I think its really worthwhile to buy now, and im so tempted loh.. but cannot.. musst restrain myself a bit. Been eating a lot in school these days too, tt I must curb as well, if not all input, no output is going to make yapp a fat man.
Theres Singapore idol today, but dont think Im going to watch it, its starting to get boring already. Besides, the contestants today are not as wellknown as last week, so ya, will make a skip today. Speaking of which, I pon my first tutorial yesterday haha.. Not that I deliberately wanted to skip one lah, its cos I woke up late, and by the time I woke up, theres only 1 more hour to get to school. When I woke up, I wasnt even thinking about school. It was only a few minutes after that I realised that I got lessons in the morning, and I quickly got mysel up. Thereafter, I stopped and thought for a while, hey..the first lesson was statistics..argg..forget it..haha.. so there u go, my first time.. :P
Its Wilson bday next week, and hes celebrating this saturday...still dont know what to get for him yet..headache ah.. its always a problem to get a birthday present for a guy, so troublesome. And the last time I went to buy, I ended up arriving 45minutes late haha.. Come to think of it, I dont think there was any time that I actually celebrated my birthday with any of my friends leh..maybe its due to the holiday reason.. hrmm..
Think I will be going back to jjc tmr.. kinda miss that place.. though my class was not that united.. perhaps its because I was more active and sociable than I was in secondary school, thus I dont really miss my secondary school days that much, opposite of what people normally feel. Besides, who can forget the volleyball days too. In fact, I would never have thought that I will join volleyball loh, its all thanks to Hengswee and Wilson that I joined, with kelvin and tatshnenn the cck gang. But I never regretted my decisions, volleyball was definitely one of the most memorable part of jc life, and I really like playing vball now.
Think I said enough for the time being, time to buy my dye..tatazz...