cant get to slp.. sianz..3plus in the morning liao... think i drink too much tea n mocha in the day liao..

Finally, my back is getting better. I have been troubled by my upper back this whole week, to the extent that it affects my mood, my concentration, my study...my life. Dunno where it comes from either..I did too many pullups? whatever..

In any case, the course work Ive been getting back for the past 2wks totally demoralised me. Assignments from all subjects were totally unacceptable. I guess the streak in me is back: I dont like losing.

Why do I yearn to see her, and yet run away when I saw her..

Just watched april snow today. Seems like Ive been watching movies these few wks, with the exams closing in.. diaoz.. For the past 3wks, I caught april snow, goal, duece bigalow, n myth. No wonder my friends say marketing is slack.

Anyway, april snow is a typical korean movie, slow moving type. So if you dont watch korean show, better not watch this as well. As for me, I kinda like it, maybe except for the plot where its rather thin, and it doesnt really say much abt what goes through the mind of the 2 main character. I watched son ye-jin(female lead) previous 2 movies before, and this one is certainly not as touching as A moment to remember, and not as in depth as The Classic. Still, I think its not bad la.

Enough of blogging, time for studying.

Sitting in front of my comp now, with a cup of hot tea, trying to stop my running nose which came out of nowhere..

Kinda wasted today, cos cant really get to concentrate myself in study. Always have a lot of breaks, walking around the house, opening the fridge etc.. and of course, with my comp in front of me, that doesnt help either. Maybe I should follow my friend example and hide my comp haa..

Got myself hooked on sudoku in the meantime.. its just so addictive, cos once u start, you want to complete it.

And for those who wants to go to geylang serai, just take the mrt to paya lebar mrt, and follow the crowd, its seenable from the mrt.

A little time for me to blog now, cos i haven been studying for the whole week, think shall start tmr, rather than today. Actually supposed to start a few days earlier de..but then been watching full house, so have to complete it first haa.. n i finally completed it today le. nice show, u shld watch it too =P after exams of course!

Full house..."I like you..thats why I want to leave you, cos it hurts too much.."

Jus went geylang serai with my mum..Think i have been going there every year since j1, except last year i think. Always refreshing to go there and take a look, basking in their festive season.. u see ppl shouting around using loudspeaker..theres one who sit on top of a ladder lor haa.. Just like to go there hee..though every year, all the stalls are still the same de hee..

Was at the kfc at jp yesterday...
then the queue damn long...
n the service damn slow...
so i timed the time taken fr start of ordering, to end of paying..
and it came up to 3mins...
wth...they call this fast food...
how to compete w mac...
they take only 1min...
no wonder queue so long..

n hor..i think their chicken doesnt taste as nice le...
was it becos they change comp? hmmm...

in the library now, slacking away.. cos the meeting still an hr plus away..
kinda bored now, don feel like doing anything yet.. hopefully the meeting will end early later.
Anyway, today damn sian, cos in the morning got a quiz, and theres this part where u have to copy data from a table, and I copied wrongly! argh...The first one I copied correctly, but the next few I looked at the wrong column! Not been a gd wk..cos another assignment got C too.
Been having the "stress" headache recently again, is my body acting against stress so poorly? I cant work if this carry on..

Finished another assignment, now im ahead of schedule le..gd gd..

Went to my aunt just now, and saw ppl picking out cans from the dustbin thrice, all elderly people. Do you guys look down on them?
I respect them. Even though their primary aim is just to get by each day. I respect them, becos they are aiding recycling efforts, and saving the environment. At times I see people littering when the bin is just a few walks away, it really disappoint me that these people have no moral values. Singapore is clean not because its people are respecting the environment, but because foreign workers are helping us to clean up.

I really wonder whether the recent ban on smoking in places such as interchanges have any effect at all, cos I still see people smoking there. Is Singapore serious in this ban? The signs are not very comforting, esp when u see the no smoking signs less than half the size of the in queue sign.

Its going to rain le.. nice nice.. Singapore is just too hot, should rain more, more water for our reservoirs too.

Been changing my msn nick in regard to my mood recently, now it reads: I need a break. yes, I need one, though time is running out for me. 30days left to exams, so fast...Will take one final break this wkend, either tmr or sat or sun or mon =P

Watched the myth recently, as usual stuffs u can expect from jackie chan movie; fight scenes which are comical. But the plot this time..ridiculous la, damn ridiculous..to me they are mocking chinese history.

tts all for now. time to study

after reading haze wrote something abt herself, heres mine too:

7things I love the most abt me

1. thinking hard now..not tt i don love myself, but its hard to find attributes tt i like abt myself.. tt i dont like to boast? but then theres a thin line between been satisfied n boasting

2. tt im not short? haa.. i noe im not tall la, but at least im not short also

3. Im a vball player =P I jus love vball =P

4. Timeliness. Im always on time, or rather, always reach before time. Like the character in Pay It Forward, being on time is showing respect, since its the time being set, the promise being made. Thats why I hate being late, except for my grp of pals who are never early.

5. Value friendship. Friends are impt to me, but of cos, tt applies to everyone also la.

6. Direction sense. I always have a gd direction sense. Since young, I always go shopping with my mum a lot, even to far flung places. So used to taking buses already, and I can recognise roads, surprising considering my poor memory. My friends always call me to ask me how to go here or there de.

7. well dept in computer stuffs, but nowadays dont have the time or resources to catch up with it also.


7things I hate the most abt me

1. Indecisiveness, making decisions are always hard for me. I want to be more decisive!

2. Direction less.. Still searching for the aim in life.

3. Stage fright. Still cant present naturally, even when Im in business..gotta improve..

4. Mistakes. I cant tolerate myself making mistakes when it affects other people. What I done wrong should be attributed to myself, not to others.

5. Inadaptive..I dont like changes, it alway takes me some time to adjust myself.

6. Indiscipline..used to be a very disciplined person, till I enter the army..ironic right, when u need to be very discipline in the army. But then army teach me to relax, and not be anxious about things. So now a lot of things also bo chap le haa

7. Moody.. my mood is easily influenced, and can change easily. Moody period can take some time to resolve too..


7 most impt things i have in my room

1. My computer! I built it mysellf, by which in the midst I damage my graphics card, and also almost damage my processor too..heng ar..

2. My hp! part n parcel of life de..

3. my photos! photos taken over the year, the link to my past

4. got so many things meh? don have le lah


7 random facts about me

1. I cant swim. ya, i cant, though i went thru swimming courses before, I still cant float.

2. I like iceskating! ok, think most of u also know that haa.. iceskating is jus so nice

3. I used to be a nerd haa..last time in secondary schools, don even dare to talk to gals de haa..

4. I started this blog because Im too bored during ns.

5. My childhood dream, to be a nature lover, to work for wwf. but then tts highly unlikely now la, im going in the different direction also.

6. I dont watch tv anymore. Whenever Im at home, I be in front of my computer.

7. I have a dog, hes called toro =P My sister named him one. His front leg got fractured before becos of me, cos he got caught between my legs while chasing after me. I was damn guilty tt time..still are now..


7 things i plan to do before I die

1. Travel! I love to see new places!

2. Thats all bah, dont really have much ambitions now.

This week is finally coming to an end. Jus didnt think that I can get past this week..the conviction that i always have whenever i feel moody, that everything will turn out fine in the end, just wasnt there in the past week. I realised that I can get headache just from trying to think, something that I nvr have before. And sometimes, I cant even think, my mind jus went blank. Now I understand those ppl who blank out during their exams. Now I understand those ppl who jump off from hdb flats.

Last thurs, I was going home from the investiture late at night, when i didnt feel like having my dinner alone. so i msg my grp of friends, and really appreciate that 2 of them came out. the best thing is, they watch me eat, which is not what I intended la, but still really glad they were there with me. It is one of those times when you dont want to be alone.

going to watch the myth with my class next tues. Hopefully nothing goes wrong, cos during the last one, all talk talk only, in the end also nvr go. Its always like this one, now I have totally no confidence in the class, and I refuse to organise any class outing for them le. The only exception is vinc, he anything always on de, ask him go eat katong laksa anytime also no prob one. Shouldnt friends be like this? If you are a close friend, shouldnt you be willing to accompany me even when I only last min call you? Why should I need to arrange w you in advance, when you cant even confirm anything.

Theres an article tt shurong posted, u can go her blog n see. wont post here in case it got me into copyright infringement =P. anyway, its about being friends with ex after breaking up. For the author, she did not find staying friends an welcome thought.
I once thought that is possible, but then it really depend on the circumstances bah. Its hard to remain as friends, once you start thinking beyond friends. Somehow you will see the person in a different light, and theres no turning back. Can we truly remain as friends? sorry i cant.