think im losing myself...

a little update..

tmr 1 proj presentation, 1 tutorial presentation, 1 written assignment to hand up...
thurs another proj presentation..
plus many probs w the pageant thingy...
= sianz....

Been really listless recently..i can jus stone at proj discussion and be completely lost at what they are discussing.. somehow my brain is not working.. so unlike me.. and memory is not working too..signs of stress?

My blog is getting filled up with studies le. sigh..a representative of what my life is filled with now..

tabula rasa..

End of the recess week. No accomplishment, except for an individual assignment of which I spent more than the intended time to do. And I have yet to start on another 1500words one.. siaoz....

Wish I can rest now, but I cant. Its damn tiring to study now, and Im losing the resolve..

Posted the pics below le. Anyway rong, I think the eski bar is cool as in both cold and cooling haa.. Its more of a new experience la, cos you dont get tt kind of weather in Spore de, so kinda refreshing to go there.

Saw 2 frens when we went there..both gals who have graduated already. Its just so strange to see them working, like Im still very young, still schooling haa.. But then again, in less than 2 years, I be like them too. Who knows, they may be my senior.

ANyway, the eski bar is really cold lor, if not the ice bar wont stay in its shape le. And the staff doesnt stay there de. Oh ya, I forgot to mention, they actually have two partition, one is the icy cold area, the other is the normal aircon area, which is still quite cold. Going there before 9pm and you will get 20% off. And going at tt time is gd too, cos it wont be tt many ppl also. At least you can get the seats, and the limited jackets!

Gotta go study le..didnt spend my time usefully in the daytime..

At the start..this is the not tt cold but still cold area..notice e waitress behind..




Now to the very cold area..temperature set to -1degrees.. vincent trying to be hero here...

Me n furqan in the coat already haa.. still feel cold lor..

Beside the Icy bar..
4 of us behind the bar..why we can? cos the staff dont even want to stay there

freezing cold..

Acting cool..

Supper at esplanade.. dunno why furqan go order fried rice sia.. so full..

Jus back from Eskibar.. cool place.. in fact, its cold.. will post the pics up some other time.. for now, time to sleep..

didnt donate blood yest, cos when I reached there, a frightening sight greeted me. A whole sea of green personnel! Not there to donate blood, worse still there to draw blood..There were there at the counter, and there drawing blood too.. in the end too scared to go in haa.. those ppl seems like nsmen. Im scared of needles already, and there they were, reservicing..siao ar...

In the end we went over to marina square, and there I was, at People Say again haa..i love tt place =p

was over at a bbq in the evening, and its quite nice. the most smooth bbq ever, fire was jus nice, chicken is tasty, we finished all food, even the box of margarine! keep putting it on everything, chicken, nuggets, mushroom, sausage.. and we finished the whole box.. amazing.. think all of us gonna die of cholestrol le haa...

Been watching slow dance for e past few wks..its a jap drama.. and in it, the character always go to the bar for a drink. Make me feel like going too, esp w my mood now.. its like so nice to go n drink, the environment is so soothing.. who wanna go w me? no one i guess.. its especially the time when u feel down tt u feel u are in the fight alone..im losing..

Was fiddling around with my desktop since thurs, finally settled on one haa.. think its quite nice, maybe u guys should try it too. Desktop X, go search for it on the search engine, the desktop themes are very nice, much diff from those normal one u saw.

Decided to take a break from studying for this 2 days, after all, the recess week is going to be busier than a normal school week. 1 individual assignent due in 1 wk, another individual assignment and 2 proj due in 2wks. plus, need to go sao negiotiate about the pageant. not to mention the 2.5days of course next wk. Aint business supposed to be slacker one?@#

Gonna go blood donation later..even though this is my fifth time le, im still pretty nervous abt the process..dont like the needles.. hopefully there wont be many ppl there also.

edited my background..no more brother there le =P shit..im supposed to be studying...

Feelin out of sorts now..

Sometimes when im feeling down, really hope that theres someone who i can talk to. but frankly speaking, theres no such person around for me. My closest group of friends, even though I know I can always count on them, doesnt really have a culture of us sharing feelings etc, if u noe what I mean. Guys typically are less sharing, unlike gals.

Went to the comex show over the weekend, and also the food fair! 328 katong laksa is there! haa...let me see...I ate katong laksa, peanut paste, chicken pie which reminded me of saf cookhse, dunno what chicken wing packed with paper one, snow ice, dumpling which i extracted the prawn n give my fren, and the jap dunno what ball haa..those dunno what things are my frens buy one, so i dunno dunno also eat =P
The comex show was packed as usual, saw my friend who worked with me at the last show, working for samsung laptop again. Sort of feel lucky i didnt work at this show, cos the promotion for samsung laptops are not very gd lo, they dont hav the model tt I sold 3months ago, wonder how my friend did.
Was hanging around tt area when I saw luke, the modelling person tt helped me out during my last event. Very nice guy, n more gals go gaga over him one, quite handsome bah. Wonder if i can get him to help me once again for the pageant. my friends were surprised tt I noe such a guy, or rather shocked tt how come a modelling guy will approach me haa..
saw sarah at the area also, asking me buy which camera, but in the end still buy what i disapprove of haa..
oh ya, theres this place called people say at marina square, went there for kopi after the show. very nice sofa haa.. whats best is the price, cos they got 50% off for students for ice-blended coffee, so its like only 2.50 for a drink lo, very cheap! and the drink quite nice too, tried all my friends drinks, so its at least 50% nice le haa.. mus go back there again if got chance.
gonna work on my proposal now, using all the skills im learning now from my bus comm, and mkting. its a time-consuming one haiz...

1 plus in the morning le.. by right should be asleep la, but then gonna update a little first, too long nvr update le.

A lot of assignments and projects are queuing up le.. sucks manz... every wk got one or 2 or even 3 things due, all the way till exam period, how to revise like tt sia.. pageant coming up as well. Boring life right? study n more study..

Anyway, regarding the background, I dont have a brother la. But right now, I do have a lot of targets I want to surpass, and perhaps putting excessive pressure on myself. The pressure Im putting on myself is returning to my pre-ns level, but the work rate and discipline are still not there, thus theres a mismatch, and Im starting to feel burn out already.

Btw, I am still in union, after declaring myself that I will be quitting after my event. Somehow or rather, i was persuaded to stay, cos of a few reasons. Firstly, human is a social being, and I am human. There is a tendency for social conformity, and thus, there is a tendency to stay with k group. Secondly, there is a need to prove myself, and this motivation comes after the last event was not successful. Third and lastly, the need for something to be on the resume.

As for the last reason, its becos im in marketing now, and marketing prospects are not good. Thus, there is a need to perform well now, for any rewards to come later. thats perhaps why Im putting a lot of emphasis on my studies now, studying in sch everyday, whenever im free. My dog is suffering though.

thats all for now, the blog is getting more and more boring right? school and more school..
heres a little rumour to interest you. Theres words going around tt theres something going on between me and my vice. This is of course not true =P in any case, Im not looking for a gf now, even though I would of course, like to have someone by my side. Studies still come first for now, but im not planning to be a monk definitely.

Gdnitezzz...