sianz...was too nervous during my presentation jus now, and sort of cock up in what i want to say... sucks.....

A lot of things happening recently, and its not within my control.. which is kind of sucky..

Should i continue on, UniPageant 07? Undecided.. so many factors to consider, but ultimately, its still my decision. Do I want it?

The new semester started le, and im already feeling the heat..and the pinch! All three of my modules need to buy new texts, and each cost fr $40+ to $60+!!! Now you know why professors are rich...

Another pageant over. Uoc Dnd.. the 4th pageant that I go through, the 3rd that Im in charge of. Im getting better!

How can I not get better after going through so many pageant? Anyway.. its been a fun night..
4 training sessions in the past wk..with one conducted by me..
Throughout the day, going through the rehearsal with the gers, making jokes along the way to make them relax..
Then sharing the one packet of nasi lemak with eric, chiewlin n june..n scavaging shuyin leftover food..
Drinking lots of coffee throughout the day..
Getting nervous as the time passed..
And then you see the gers watching tv and laughing away an hr before the event..
Briefing the gers and cheering them on..
E grp being written as F grp and getting told off by the emcee..
Praying the program goes well..
Praying that the couples will be spontaneous during segment 2.5...
Doing stupid cheers...
Singing national songs...
Buying mac on the way hm..
Insomia n slept at 6am cos I drank too much coffee..

A Night of Fun... Special Projects Rocks!

Even when we are creating tomorrow's past memories, we are missing yesterdays.

Im missing the drive to do things, dragging myself through life everyday. Perhaps I have break for too long. Or perhaps I have live for too long. Meanwhile, Im spending too much energy on past memories, instead of creating new ones. Let me be..

chased by dogs..
packing vegetables..
marvelling at bubbles and snails in a puddle..
seeing a cat giving birth..
seeing a cat giving birth and eating her newborn...
taking a tour on a lorry...
taking pics of flowers..
n papayas..
n the sunset..

things u wont experience in urban life.. a day at a farm..

Quoting from my friend's blog:
"It's strange how we try to recall memories of people who are gone . People who still live can create new memories with you again , however, people whom have gone first can never do that with us again."
"It happens that you will reach a stage of life when people starts to leave you."

Reading her blog.. I felt remorseful.. for when I was more concerned abt my own mood, I failed to realise that people around me, they have their difficulties in life too.. That each of us face different types of problems, enter into different mood everyday.

Another quote:
We are so busy thinking about our own bruises,our own scar,we forget how to forgive...But if we just take the time to peek into someone elses world,even the unforgiveable, be forgiven.

I have attended several funerals now..mostly are parents or grandparents of my friends. And each time, I never spoke more than a sentence to the friend involved..for I really do not know what to say. Things like dont be sad..its futile..how can someone not be sad? How do you cheer up someone in those type of situation?

Life does go on..even as we lost people close to us along the way. But while it is important to look ahead..sometimes we should really spare some time, and reflect on our memories.