On a heavier note.. ive been having erratic mood..can go fr high to low the next sec.. perhaps my fren is right..i do feel unhappy. I know i offended many people in the past few wks..and have a high tendency to rebuke even if the initial wordings meant no harm.. sigh..

Back fr camp!!! after 1 wk of absence..its been a good time, n didnt want it to end actually. Thoroughly enjoyed it, and really, KaJa RockS!!! hehe.. :)

I started off slow, on the initation night, cos theres just so many seniors ard, i didnt have to do anything. And then the 2nd day we have the field games, pool games, and of course the fright nite, and was acting ghost with kelvin, xiuhui and chiewlin.. wanted to avoid it initially, but in the end still go there n act ghost..Wheres the baby..find the baby.. haha.. Bonding bet my fellow seniors haa.. And this find my baby joke went on thruout the camp

We have round the sch games, sp interaction, og dinner and buttery factory on tuesday. The sp interaction day is v fun.. 4 freshies fr different grps sitting together, blindfolded, interacting with each other... and we seniors secretly sit ard and evesdropping hhaa.. and also took lots of bashing photos haa.. Lots of memories on tt night..laughter on the train cos of zhichao and minghui..us eating at thai express at city link, and telling lame jokes..and me never been able to finish my food cos kris kp adding her share to me.. n then we walked to butter factory fr city link..its so far away..n we ended up playing the diu game in club#$% haa.. And the freshies..walked to the dance floor first, and started playing the shui ban dan game, kelvin who was following them, walked back the our seat and give me the diaoz face haa...

we have amazing race on the 4th day, for which i was missing most of the time, joining them back in the afternoon, then in sentosa we spent the night there in the sapphire hall. Had candlefight on tt night too, for which we lost all the games, but it was v fun, esp the last game with our sister grp elvis.. super friendly game with lots of laughter.. it jus show u dont have to win to have fun! slept quite late at night cos some of us walked to 7eleven to buy food, and a few freshies actually have icecream! And ya, we started singing national songs at the bus terminal at sentosa haa..

5th day of beach games.. saw a very amazing thing.. 3 amos, they build a sand sofa! its super amazing! will post the photos when i get them, and next time must go there play sand! super nice nice.. One whole day of beach games..and one funny thing..shaggy cheering for Edmund haa.. cos he allowed them goals twice haa, so we started saying hes a traitor, and he started shouting shaggy rocks! haa.. The night ended with us at the chalet at aloha loyang, and going out to eat supper.

6th day, Sp Day, mamasan day.. Minghui was absolutely high over his sp haa.. wanting him to strip, sing etc.. and then we 5 seniors and her hiding under blankets for her sp to chose. And ya..she actually had a painting on exhibition at harbourfront there, cos she got gold award.. wow... at night was the cheerfight, which we went to the 2nd/final round, but lost out. Still, Kaja motto is, life goes on haa.. And then its a night of bbq, and at 3am, i managed to get the seniors out to the beach haha.. Keep stopping them fr slping by saying lame jokes..Edmund was awoken by me..and he shouted shaggy rocks when we were leaving haa.. And one more thing, in the morning when i woke up..went back room to find it latched.. then was calling the freshie to open the door..but only saw daphne waking up, sitting up, and looked at me, then turned away.. argh... and she and another person, jus sat there stoned.. haha..guessed they too tired liao..

Sunset in pasir ris.. its nice, and would be even nicer if there isnt ships there.. and theres also a lot of hermit crabs there! small small ones at the beach when it recide.. and also the few of us playing with our shadows at the beach..

7th day/last day. Breaking camp..and the whole camp shouting steve sucks, we agree.. having a common enemy really bonds ppl haa.. And so we ended our day at White sands swensens..KaJa Lives on!!!

I dont understand why, I still bother to organise outings, when people dont appreciate it. Some people can jus make things difficult..not wanting to confirm with you whether they are coming.. and then there are people who fly plane last min, and jus give some lame excuses.. and then there are those who complain abt this and tt.. They jus pissed me off.. I dont understand why I bother...

And there are people who can ask whether they can pay less cos they come late..

Why should I bother?

I already gave up on my uni class, even deleted myself fr the yahoo grp, to stop even the slightest intention of me organising anything. All those natos...

Hey! i dont owe anyone anything! Stop pissing me off!

maybe

Work finally ended. Now more work to do..pa report..pageant coordination...start of school...fyp...
Will it end? never.. if it end, it means my end too. A life without doing anything, would be hard to pass.

In any case, gonna be gone next week, for my freshmen orientation camp. Fun fun!!

Lakeside Mrt, 7am.
The crowd of zombies..
patiently waiting for their buses..
Life...What is it about?

When someone doesnt reply ur msg..
or answer ur call, or even return ur missed call..
you get worried.. anxiety..
and you wonder what she is doing right now..
hoping everthing is fine with her..

thats the only thing i wish now..

Dramas have become so inspirational, and influential to me nowadays..
watched a tennis drama, wanted to learn tennis,
watched a korean drama, wished i can play the piano..
watched a jap drama, and thought i shld have chosen an advertising firm for pa.
Now even advertising firm interest me le..tt kind of job..challenging to clear any boredom in life..

Wish...upon a shooting star...

A quote fr Spring Waltz,

We are so busy thinking about our own bruises,
our own scar,
we forget how to forgive...
But if we just take the time to peek into someone elses world,
even the unforgiveable
be forgiven

Its late, im tired, but I dont feel like sleeping. Perhaps becos i have nothing to look forward to. Nothing.

- World Cup Final -

Italy vs France, who will win??? Im rooting for Italy haa.. hopefully it be an exciting match..and not too defensive.. if nt i will fall asleep.. And surprisingly, i haven bet on any matches during this world cup!! Hmmm.. think cos too busy(or bored) by work, and also cos of the stupid starhub having exclusive rights that i didnt really catch a lot of matches.

- Dog eye see people low -

A fact of life. Sometimes people judge you on your background, and sort of look down on you. I remembered this incident a few sems back. One of my classmate, asked another what jeans he wear, and he answered he dunno whats the brand. Then this classmate of mine, replied, aiya..mus be some branded jeans. What she answered, is not based on what she see, but on my fren background. Rich.

Whether its intentional or not, its jus the way we are brought up, the way we view people being influenced by our environment. Another incident happened, thats why i thought of this. And i have only one answer. Go ahead and look down on me, I will be worth more than you in future, regardless of the clothes i wear.

v sian at work recently, cos all i do is filing and filing..next time can go apply for librarian liao.

Something else to talk abt today..Student Union.
Being in it for 2 yrs, i can tell u..the organisation sucks. A lot of ppl inside have no committment at all, and you wonder why they are in it in the first place. The director can go on holiday for one month and come back only before the orientation camp start. And then you have have the leader going overseas study when there is 2 major events coming. Absolutely no responsibility at all, and they shouldnt be there in the first place..And then you can have the ppl who sabotage my event last yr being the pres this yr.

But anyway, thats how it is.

One week of non-vball..feeling unfit already.. but its a good rest for my hand, cos i injured it last wk. Hopefully it will totally heal by next wk. And ya, been watching korean drama Spring Waltz recently..getting sadder and sadder..really wonder why is it so hard to love someone? It really makes me wonder whether i have really did enough.. But anyway, its a nice show, esp at the beginning, it reminds me of why i like korean shows.. cos the whole feeling, the atmosphere of the whole show.. its v nice..

Another weekend is here.. expect to stay at hm cos dont really have activities.. and should start writing my logbook le..ja..