Contendment, or discontendment.

Recently, when i was asked what I things I want, I couldnt think of any, any thing that I lack. They always say to be contend with what you have, and you will be happy with your life. But, that may not be true.

When you are contended with life, when you give up your pursue of things in life, you will lose your focus. When theres no goals in your life, everything just move so slowly. Life become harder instead. And some happenings will affect you harder. Harder to move away from it. Harder to keep looking on the bright side. Harder to put it down.

Harder..

Dinner

I skipped my dinner yesterday. Knowingly and unknowingly. Feel asleep for a while at night, so didnt feel the hunger also. But didnt go buy or cook any dinner... cos no one was home, didnt feel like eating dinner alone too, so went without dinner. So basically, had only one full meal the whole day, with 2baos in the morning, and another 2 in the afternoon.

Sometimes I can eat meals alone anytime, anywhere. But other times, especially when I feel down, I will rather skip my meal.


Current nick:
Crossroad Junction...

Convenience

A lot of times, we do things not by choice, but by convenience.
Its inevitable, as some choices are hard to make, and doing it by convenience solve a lot of problems.
You went to a certain jc cos your friends are going there..
And then you took the same modules together..
And you joined the same cca..
You stick to the same friends..
Eat the same food everytime..
You stick to the same way of going to school..
There are a lot of things you can try but did'nt..
When you conveniently dont reply to certain matters
And now, you are at a crossroad again..
Choice or convenience..

Quoted from my friend's blog..
Are you a puppet controlled by the surrounding environment or do you want to gain back your control

What should i do?...

Current nick
Attracted to gals who play guitar...

Kaoru Amane. The female lead in the story, Taiyou no Uta, also known as A Song for the Sun. Or some of you know the movie better, Midnight Sun.

Im attracted by gers who can sing, and better still, with a guitar in their hands. Gentle voice.. together with the guitar.. I think thats one of the nicest sound in this world..

Dont sing to me.. if you dont want me to fall for you..

Msn Nick

My nick tends to reflect my feelings at tt particular time. That explains why it can change several times in a day.Thus, i shall try to record it down in my blog when i have the time.



Current Nick
Maybe im setting the wrong priority..but it doesnt matter.. this is more impt to me..

Was at the market just now, and saw people selling chinese new year decorative items already, so fast.. But I wont be celebrating this coming CNY.. so, if you are free during that period, ask me out please =)

Just came back from Fish chalet.. nice nice.. nice to nua..

Simplicity

My dog, Toro, can sleep anywhere, any time. When he have nothing to do, he will just lie down and fall asleep very fast. Its not because hes lazy or what, rather, its because he have a simple mind. He does not have any worries in his mind, other than when we take his toys. Thats why he is able to sleep very fast.

Me, on the other hand, thinks a lot. When I have nothing to do, I think. When I say Im nuaing, Im thinking. Thinking of a lot of things. And sometimes, I find it hard to get to sleep, when the things Im thinking about worries me. Or its the other way round, things become worrying because I think of it. I dunno. But I just cant stop thinking.

Because I care.

Or maybe its better not to think. Be simple. And I will be happier at more times than Toro shaking his tail.

Hotel Rwanda

Just watched Hotel Rwanda. Its a very nice show, surprisingly, because I was expecting myself to be bored by it. But instead, I didnt realise 2hours have passed by when the show was coming to an end.

Purpose

Was wondering why I am writing my blog all this while. For what purpose. To express my thoughts? To record down things in my life? To share with my friends what I have been through? So that I do not keep things to myself?

Been mia for the past 2 weeks. Things happened, and there are so many things I want to say, but didnt. Didnt find anyone I can talk to. Or rather, people I want to, didnt realise I want to talk. I have a close clique of friends, friends I know I can depend on, but I didnt depend on. Then there are a few others, that I would like to talk to. I did call her, but she didnt pick up the phone. And when she did call back, I didnt answer, becos I didnt know what else to say.

I didnt blog too. Didnt see the point to. Because I never know who is reading this blog. Didnt want to share with people that I dont want to share with, so I didnt blog. What is the purpose of writing this blog then? Presenting a self that is not myself, but a self that i want others to see.

Im tired already, of being too dependant of technology. Lets all go back to the good old days of talking in person, it is seriously better that way.

Theres a report in the straits times today, saying that cigarettes contain plutonium, a radioactive material thats more reactive than the atomic bomb used in 1945. And 1.5 pack of cigarettes is equivalent to 30 chest xrays. Wow. Good luck to those smokers.

Then theres this other report in friday's paper, an article on eating shark's fin. Its not your typical anti-shark's fin read-up, but rather, the writer tried to be objective in expressing his viewpoint, that eating shark's fins isnt as threatening and immoral as what the anti- parties want you to believe. That the act of cutting off the fins of sharks, and then throwing them back into the waters, are seldom practised, and even outlawed in most countries. Only 3 types of sharks are in the endangered list.

Sometimes you really dunno what to believe in the information presented to you. What is the truth? But still, I wouldnt eat shark's fins.

For Siying.. is it him?

Feeling sick.. thus been lying in bed just now, and decided to turn on my radio. And realised that its been a long time since I listen to the radio at night. Just listening to the radio and doing nothing else. One of my favourite pastime, one that I forgot over time.

Used to do it alot, especially in secondary school. Listening to glenn ong till 2 or 3am in the morning, really enjoy listening to him last time, with 5guys and a gal.. short fart, simone, and some other characters that he created. But this practice was gradually forgotten as I went in jc, when I have a pc at home, with many games occupying my time. Radio become something that filled the background instead. Then with the proliferation of mp3, that is when I really stopped tuning in.

Its really nice, jus to lie down there, with eyes close, just listening.